More distractions

So I am sitting here not working on my paper which is due at 2pm. Instead reflecting on life seems more relevant after staying up all night.

It really is because after I turn in this paper it won't matter. Just something I put work into that never goes anywhere. I am thrilled and so excited to take classes I am passionate about next year. I want to want to learn again. I am like that now in one of my Africa classes.

But what I was really thinking about as I looked at the clouds covering Albany is meeting people. Strangely I was thinking that in one direction is one ex-boyfriend, another the other way across the river. Then that other kid is off in the distance that way. Then there are all the faces I forgot about or pushed out of my memory scattered across campus.

Sometimes I think that I am not actually crazy at all. I am just acutely aware. When I have time I actually like to sit down and figure out shit. Everyone else is running around hiding who they really are. I am just throwing it all out there all the time. Thats not true, my job makes me hide. RL has helped me master the fake enthusiasm. Its a life-long skill. I can smile and be perky and loud and energetic and helpful as soon as I choose. Unless my boyfriend broke up with me 5 minutes ago. I need like 30 minutes to stop crying then I can go be fake. Really, trust me, I did it. I was cheery with my big red puffy eyes. Why is it that we are supposed to act like we always are there to answer your question? Why is it not allowed for me to be moody, have a bad day, not want to talk to you. Can't you ask someone else right now? Welcome to the service industry I guess. Thats what happens when you live where you work?

Did you know I have 7 unnatural holes in my body?

Right, getting back to me standing out. I think if you recorded my thought process for a whole day, it would fit in with most people on this campus. Why is it that I am so weird then? Actually I am not weird I just want to stand out. Where most people want to fit the norm, i don't like being categorized with other people.

Okay I need to go write 4 more pages on racial identity.

~you can always find something to be happy about~

Dance Music April 24th

Get it get it dance dance music time












Uffie is coming out with a new cd- 'sex, dreams and denim jeans'<3

Music Blog 4

YAY
Maps & Atlases first full length album has a release date- June 29th
track from it here
http://www.musicsnitch.com/2010/04/08/maps-atlases-new-album-single-and-tour/

Chiddy Bang release date is August 25... unofficially

Brighten released Be Human on iTunes
I will be listening to and quoting Without You for a long time

♫ I'll never know everything
But I know you love me ♫

go listen here- Brighten

GROUP - colours
I don't know what it is about this song.. but i keep listening and liking it more and more

Another CD I want from a new band
Hey Champ
good Pop-rock

I love Crystal Castles... a lot. They were one of the first few electronic bands I liked. And here is a sick remix



Another getting ready to go out dancing song
Santigold Remixed - go to this persons blog

Some old music I just discovered-
Emily Haines (Metric singer) before Metric


New Blog I love
Kick Kick Snare

New Photo inspiration blog
Wet behind the Ears

This movie looks strange- I love stumble upon
http://io9.com/328057/ryan-philippes-atheist-superhero-fights-psycho-cults

And I will leave you with the best postsecret of the week
Loving Life

The Blogs I Read

http://thepioneerwoman.com/
Loved the cooking section, now I read everything

http://www.foodpeoplewant.com/
Foodie love

http://smittenkitchen.com/
Great recipe collection

http://www.wetbehindthears.com/
Beautiful photos

http://daynnightblog.com/
Good Music

Other websites that I check obsessively
facebook (obviously)

http://hypem.com/
Great music blog roll, where I constantly find new bands

http://foodporndaily.com/
ughhhh this site makes me so jealous & hungry

http://www.tastespotting.com/ or http://foodgawker.com/

Music Blog 3

Updated Calender of CD Releases-
Out now-
Portugal. the man
Broken Bells

She & Him- Volume 2 out March 23rd
Brighten- Be Human - March 23th
Envy on the Coast March 30th
Caribou- Swim- April 20th
Minus the Bear- May 6th
Foals- Total Life Forever- May 10th
Band of Horses- Infinite Arms- May 18th
Framing Hanley (huge crush on them) May 25th YAY


Things I want
Mumford & Sons

Brownies

So Thanksgiving break gave me some time to bake finally horray!
I wanted brownies and cookies so I started the quest for my personal brownie perfection recipe.
This time I used smitten kitchens recipe which she took from Cooks Illustrated
http://smittenkitchen.com/2006/10/and-then-i-went-shoe-shopping/
However I decided to mess with it. As much butter as chocolate? That is a sin. I left out 1/2 a stick of butter so I *only* used 1 whole stick. To keep the wet/dry ratio in check I threw in some chocolate chips, of course I didn't measure it. I used Godiva bittersweet chocolate by the way.
I also had problems with the sugar. We only had raw sugar. So it is bigger crystals than could stir in. Fortunately they melted while baking so of course it is still sweet. Also I left out 1/4 of a cup of the sugar so it was down to 2 cups of sugar in the end.
Other issue is that I am not sure I baked them enough? They supposedly take only 30-35 minutes so after 45 minutes I just pulled them out, the toothpick test wasn't working for me

Overall they are fudgy and yummy but I will continue hunting. I did like using cake flour, probably because we only have whole wheat flour (ew in brownies), but I like to think that it contributed to it being fluffy.

Why agnotistic?

I enjoy people questioning my belief system, because I forces me to develop a strong enough answer to convince them and myself in turn of why I do feel this way.

How can each of our eyes be different and still work? I know there is a scientific explanation. But how did this all start?

But I can't except any religion that has been so infiltrated by mans ideas.